Heart broken
Its over… just like that those were your last words.. For a moment i was relieved but now its hitting me. hitting me like a dagger straight to my heart. 6 years with you :( we even have a baby girl. I dont know why its just that easy for you. I would like to say its easy for me to, but it really isn’t. You were my love my everything. So here i go blabbing away to tumblr all my feelings. I hate you for blaming me for everything. I put up with all your crap and stuck around . and for you to leave like what we had was nothing is really unbelievable. I just need to understand that what we had wasn’t real, just two kids that feel in love at 14 and had a baby at 20, right?? I dont know what to do anymore but let go. Be the strong mother that our daughter needs with or without you in our lives.She’s all i need. And if you dont want to be around for me at least be there for her. And if you can’t even be there for Madison it’s ok, because I will be both her mother and father. I know for sure she will thank me in the long run for always be there for her. So yea I’ll get over it eventually and maybe even very soon but that doesn’t make it hurt any less right now </3
Babygirl (3.19.2012)
Its been a while since I wrote you a little something. But while your playing in your playpen i decided to write. You’ve grown so much baby girl. You crawl all over the place, You stand when ever you get the chance to. I feel like these 8 months flew by :/ I remember when you were a little newborn and had to depend on me to feed you and hold you. Now you want your own bottle an don’t even want to be held like my baby lol . Its ok, I guess I just have to learn that your growing up and soon you wont need my help for anything. Your almost one and that scares me :( I dont want my nena to grow up. I wish you can stay little forever. Sigh this has been a hard 8 months, Being a young mom sure isn’t easy. My bag went from having makeup body spray a brush keys a whole bunch of girls junk to baby cookies baby toys extra outfits, pampers, wipes, boo*boos lol. Its ok baby girl because I love you. Now stop growing up to fast maddii <3
